Sunday, July 29, 2012

Jonah Hill

Last night I spent about an hr looking through Jonah Hill's success and endeavors. I don't know what my issue is but I really like this guy. No, it is not about money it is about knowing him as a powerful man and knowing him in the flesh. I may faint if we ever met, I don't now how he would see me. I dreamed of him last night and all I dreamed was being in a car with him seeing his personality in the works. I tried tweeting him and he never responded to me, I am assuming I woud not be the first. I love his eyes so much he is definitely my type. I like men who are sociable and connected to life. I am a bit of anti -socialist only because I have not found a social life here to connect to so I took myself into College as a photographer. I will do this so I can be connected to people like Jonah maybe I can launch a career as a photographer and he'll allow me to take pictures. He is so busy with movies and the spotlight and hot women he would never have the time to see me. I've asked him to come to Rochester, NY. He hasn't replied so maybe because of his lack to communicate with his fans that may be why no one is really tweeting about him.


Sunday, July 15, 2012

Beyoncé feat. Jay-Z - Deja Vu ft. Jay-Z



Déjà Vu"
(feat. Jay-Z)

[Intro:]
[Beyonce:] Bass
[Jay-Z:] Uh
[Beyonce:] Hi hat
[Jay-Z:] Uh
[Beyonce:] 808
[Jay-Z:] Uh
[Beyonce:] Jay
[Jay-Z:] Uh-huh
Ready?
Uh-huh
[Beyonce:] Let's go get 'em
[Jay-Z:] Uh-huh
C'mon

[Jay-Z Rap]
I used to run base like Juan Pierre
Now I run the bass hi hat and the snare
I used to bag girls like Birkin Bags
Now I bag B ([Beyonce:] Boy you hurtin' that)
Brooklyn Bay where they birthed me at
Now I be everywhere, the nerve of rap
The audacity to have me whipping curtains back
Me and B, she about to sting
Stand back

[Verse 1]
Baby seems like everywhere I go
I see you, from your eyes, your smile
It's like I breathe you, helplessly I reminisce
Don't want to compare nobody to you

[Pre-Hook]
Boy, I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can't let it go
Oh

[Hook]
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

[Verse 2]
Seeing things that I know can't be
Am I dreaming? When I saw you walking past me
Almost called your name
Got a better glimpse and then I looked away
It's like I'm losing it

[Pre-hook]
Boy, I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can't let it go, oh

[Hook]
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

[Jay-Z Rap 2]
Yes! Hova's flow so unusual
Baby, girl you should already know
It's H-O, light up the dro'
'Cause you gon' need help tryna study my bounce, flow, blow
What's the difference?
One, you take in vein while the other you sniffin'
It's still dough, po-po try to convict him
That's a no-go
My dough keep the scales tipping like 4-4's
Like I'm from the H-O-U-S-T-O-N
Blow, wind so Chicago of him
Is he the best ever, that's the argu-a-ment
I don't make the list, don't be mad at me
I just make the hits, like a factory
I'm just one-to-one, nothin' after me
No Deja Vu, just me and my, Oh

[Bridge]
Baby I can't go anywhere
Without thinking that you're there
Seems like you're everywhere, it's true
Gotta be having Deja Vu
'Cause in my mind I want you here
Get on the next plane, I don't care
Is it because I'm missing you
That I'm having Deja Vu

[Pre-hook]
Boy, I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can't let it go
Whoo...

[Hook]
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

Friday, July 13, 2012

Freeloaders.

Okay, so Continuation of the last incident and the person i was referring to was my sister who refuses to do the right thing and relies on my couch to do so. I told her I help get her into a shelter and so she was placed in one and is bitching and moaning about it. It needs to be done and she is getting aggressive with me over it and wants to go when it is convenient for her. When she walks out the door at midnight my doors will be locked. I am tired of this shit. This is my apartment and she is suppose to get help and refuses to do it. I am not your caregiver and I had to get housing so why can't you.

The laws that are broken in Monroe County

When someone is homeless it is a big deal, especially when it involves children and the disabled. most of the time homelessness occurs because the person is in a tough bind whether it be emotional, mental, physical or all together. Even domestic violence, it is still havoc. So when you are in these situations you go to Human services for help. It is their job to determine the best outcome for you. As long as you abide by their requirements you can be eligible for services. But what happens when those very services are denied based on discrimination and or failing to give a damn about you based on their prejudices on Welfare? When a law is passed it is then passed down with a limited amount of grants to states to be branched out to other government agencies throughout each County. Then the workers that are working in these agencies then offer these grants to those who need it. Well, those laws do not apply in Monroe County, they pick and choose who they will offer help to because the job market is practically null and so mostly everyone who is eligible gets denied based on lame excuses like, "oh you need receipts of where you spent your $60.00 this week before we can give you shelter." Other counties within New york wouldn't even think of saying something like that to you unless they want to be out of a job. But here, they feel justified. I am not homeless, but a family member I know, is and is trying to get herself together. She used to work, drive and go to school. But she has mental illnesses that progressed over the years. I had to beg a Psychiatrist to help her, and they rolled their eyes and said, "Fine." When she tried to drive her car off a cliff, it was like they were HOPING she do herself off.

Let's be logical here and come up with reasons as to why they would deem someone unfit for emergency services? Ok, if you have a bank account with more than $800.00 then they may say, you can get a room and settle there. I can totally go with that idea. But if someone has less than $100.00 a week on living expenses, homeless and a car with little gas I may say, "Eh...we can do something for you".So if the county is on a tight stretch on who can receive services they better have a good reason for turning someone away from help. So, in this case it wasn't. I ended up contacting other people with mental health services and told them the situation. Oh boy...the gentleman was all over this like white on rice. And even got the head director of human services to do a three way with my relative to determine her outcome. And waiting on that at the moment. Now here is the twist,  if you have any cash on you they will not help you with emergency services, however that is not how the regulations work. Monroe County Social services workers pick and choose who they will help and disregard those in need for whatever their reasoning is, I can never be sure. all I know is it gets tiring to have to go to the proper channels to get help, I don't want to burn that option out so it needs to be a one time thing.

The ways of Rochester NY is sad. So many crooked politicians and little common sense everything here is for personal gain, so if Social services helps someone they're doing it because the person they chose has something they want. I'm guessing your integrity. Because nothing more evil than a bunch of sarcastic people who have no regard to your well being.

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I am still waiting on that call. I can't wait to finish school and get out of Rochester.



Wednesday, July 4, 2012

My sweet pill how you make me feel chill

Dear Percocet,

I want you to know how you make me feel, deep inside the earth moves me with
every moment I embrace you. I feel good, I feel great last for a few hours until the next break.
I see you have water as you companion so down I drink. So loopy and sweet I cannot think
lips so dry, laying alone feels so awry, touch me tease me I need for a human to touch me so
orgasms so strong, leaving me alone would be wrong so wet I become screaming toes curling
as my moment is reached ...feel the wind, feel the touch, nothing else is...moving. I dance in the mist with my still body waiting for the right time to laugh to move...is forevermore. laying in this motion is best. I will never let you go.