Tuesday, March 26, 2013


Highway run 
Into the midnight sun 
Wheels go round and round 
You're on my mind 

Restless hearts 
Sleep alone tonight 
Sending all my love along the wire 
They say that the road 
Ain't no place to start a family 
Right down the line it's been you and me 
And loving a music man 
Ain't always what it's supposed to be 
Oh Girl 
You stand by me 
I'm forever yours 

Circus life 
Under the big top world 
We all need the clowns to make us smile 

Through space and time 
Always another show 
Wondering where I am lost without you 
And being apart ain't easy on this love affair 
Two strangers learn to fall in love again 
I get the joy of rediscovering you 
Oh girl 
You stand by me 
I'm forever yours 

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh 
I'm still yours 
I'm forever yours 
Ever yours 

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Figuring it all out

How do you separate general problems in society from local problems from society? I am trying to do that now. I keep telling myself I am going to cross that ocean (Truman show) and get away from this facade. In order to make it; I need to illustrate it. I keep looking to see just maybe things will get better just then I receive an email from one of those Section 8 notification type real estate housing searches. And someone posted a home to rent and said, NO SECTION 8 in bold letters. This is the norm up here constant pushing away of those in housing need, They keep all the disabled persons in small homes in run down areas even the elderly are treated like garbage here. I fucking hate Rochester with the passion. I cannot wait to leave. I'm done talking 

Blippity fonduyahhh


Friday, March 15, 2013

Set in stone, The moving process #1

I've decided to go ahead and start a online book of my Journey out of Rochester the positive the negative, the pretty, the ugly, and so on and so forth. 


I went to the Office to transfer my housing papers and it takes a few months to process everything but my move is set for next May 2014. I know its a whole fucking year left in this place but hopefully it'll go quickly. I am in College and may not be done by then but I will be taking courses online to help ease my transition to ____. I did not find a new place because up here people are so stuck on "2.5 times the rent." And according the head supervisor he said that HUD investigating this new form of discrimination to keep us poor bitches out. So for right now I am not looking to find out how much shit I'll go through before those laws change. So I rather go somewhere that is not prejudice and is willing to give me a chance. So this year I am going to be busy. I was late on a few payments last year, this year this cannot happen. So I need to make payments to my Landlord every month on time no matter if a giant Alligator is crawling in my bathtub up here you can't withhold rent because it makes you look like a poor bitch and already they discriminate against you. 

On a different note I am doing very well in my classes. I am focusing on my Syllabus and what to expect from these Professors. I have bonded with some of my classmates but as for meeting up after class it hasn't reached that level. I also put my sister on my housing papers. I know...it doesn't seem wise but it will get her to get out of the place she is in and on her own after she leaves Rochester to move back to NYC. 

I just think if I let her live with me everything will go to shit. I don't drink, smoke I like a quiet atmosphere and focusing on my work is important. I just want to leave here and never look back. I want this time out of here to be the best thing I ever did and not to be something I'll regret. 

and he is coming with me, he wants to. We're still together and I wonder what kind of life that'll be for me because his grades are terrible and he hasn't gotten off of academic probation. If he gets off of that then he can transfer his classes. I rather he do something productive throughout the day. I already found a few town-homes that'll accept me. So, the first step is letting time take its course and prepare. 

1. Start saving. We will need a security deposit.

2. Call places find out their requirements, get applications (some places are waitlisted)

3. Go look at places get a "feel" face to face of what your environment is going to be.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         

Friday, March 8, 2013

Rental discrimination AGAIN.

Tried again to move to a new place, I have established good credit I pay my rent, bills on time. and yet I was denied, no affirmative reasoning that would make sense other than "2.5 times the rent." So does this sound accurate to you? I can't talk to my sister she is always strung out on drugs, she sounds doped up. And Akin is definitely not happening. I am stuck here for another year, so I am moving out of Rochester officially as soon as I finish my last two semesters I am gone for good. I am not going to fight with the rotten ways of this place. I am here for my education and then on my way I go. Akin doesn't care he lives off his parents and will continue to do so for the rest of his life. I don't have parents that I can hide behind whenever Adult situations come up. I remember "he" tried to get a place and they told him, no, no, no. So to get a really nice Apartment up here you have to be rich and make over 1,500.00 more than your rent. In that case, people can afford a house the Rochestarians up here are idiots. Who would pay that kind of money? So I am not writing on here for awhile because nothing right now is positive to talk about, I am ready to go home but I have to wait until I am finished with school first. My sister wants to go to Long Island,  yet, I don't want to live in NY anymore. I want to try and see about going home, even though people I know from placement live in CT. I don't want to bump into people on the regular that are from foster care. I don't want to do that I've lived my life without involving them in my personal business. But sometimes I think about it. And I will try again.