Thursday, November 15, 2012

One time too many

I am swamped with school I dropped my photography class because it was too much for my schedule. I needed to focus on my English and other two classes. To me four classes is a large load, i just did not click with my photography teacher. I prefer looking at the arts and doing things the way I like I don't have time for anything. I have three PFJ papers due after Thanksgiving. I am trying to get at least a B in English and for my other class. Ok on some other conversations. I have been out socializing with lesbian women. Here is the kicker...I still like sex with akin sometimes. It's freaky and I don't have to emotionalize it to any extent. I am not looking for love, I don't believe in it anymore. I actually stopped believing in it after I started getting high on Vidocin  I only have 3 pills and I want more. I know ways to get some I guess. I know an 18 yr old who wants me sexually and can tease her and work it on her if she gets me what I need. I don't particularly care for anything I just go to school come home clean or hang out. I hate being alone I hate not feeling good. For the past year I was denied love on three different occasions so to me it is not real. I want money, you want sex? Get me vicodin.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Let me bleed just a little more

I am going to say I met ANOTHER Kris and by accident! She has a dog named Clifford and the other woman I wanted to be with had a landlord named Clifford. She's getting evicted for not paying rent she owes $2,000.00 in rent. Well the Kris that lives here turns me on really bad and she's a leo. I wanted to kiss her but I was afraid A would be all up in my lips. LOL. I hate having to be nice to someone and then deal with A craziness. But Kris is hot. OMG. I can't wait to try her out. But....my old love I miss her terribly. She's on drugs though. IDK. Whatever she took $125.00 from me and didn't care. Obama won ..let us all just commit suicide.

This is Kris the woman I wanted originally. We knew each other back in School. After she used me for money I found it was to get high I reported her to her PO. And let her know she is on drugs.



                                             
                                               What a hunk, her eyes are so piercing.






Sunday, November 4, 2012

an eye for an eye.

The idea that one wants to play games and trifle me is to be one sorry S.O.B. I am not the person you think I am, the one whom you can just use and abuse at your disposal. I do avenge people yes. because people like to play games and treat me like shit. well fuck you sideways.