Saturday, April 20, 2013

Daft Punk Get lucky Ft. Pharell Williams



Like the legend of the phoenix
Our end is what we get in
What keeps the planet spinning (uh)
A force of love beginning

(Look)

We've come too far to give up who we are
So let's raise the bar and our cups to the stars

She's up all night to the sun
I'm up all night to get some
She's up all night for good fun
I'm up all night to get lucky

We're up all night to the sun
We're up all night to get some
We're up all night for good fun
We're up all night to get lucky

We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky

The present has no rhythm
Your giving keeps on giving
What is this I'm feeling?
If you wanna leave, I'm with it

We've come too far to give up who we are
So let's raise the bar and our cups to the stars

She's up all night to the sun
I'm up all night to get some
She's up all night for good fun
I'm up all night to get lucky

We're up all night to the sun
We're up all night to get some
We're up all night for good fun
We're up all night to get lucky

We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky

We're up all night to get
We're up all night to get
We're up all night to get lucky
(get lucky)
We're up all night to get lucky

We've come too far to give up who we are
(We're up all night to get lucky)
So let's raise the bar and our cups to the stars
(We're up all night to get lucky)

She's up all night to the sun
I'm up all night to get some
She's up all night for good fun
I'm up all night to get lucky

We're up all night to the sun
We're up all night to get some
We're up all night for good fun
We're up all night to get lucky

We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Responsibilities are none to you.

I wanted to tell myself the reality of my relationship. He refuses to be a man it'll never happen. He is 32 years old and was told today to be careful with him because he is out of his mind. That he will never be able to pay bills, save money, be responsible. I don't think moving with him to ___ is a good idea. I think he is safer here at home with his parents. I don't want him tagging along drying up my resources. and making me embarrassed around people I rather be on my own instead of dealing with him. He is too much, I haven't been able to connect with people since him and I got together I want to go to Disney I wish I had a friend who was normal and can afford their own tickets. I can't eat pork or fish because Akin is always on some psychotic thought. I have had enough. I miss pork chops!!

Disneyworld?

Well I had plans to go to Disney for a week and come back. I have been approved for my car so I was going to wait until August but i want to go to Disney and needed Akin ti fork over 2-3 grand as well and we put our money together. But it looks like he hasn't even saved from School because he has no money coming from there. I am beginning to think my dreams are flustered and only I can go by myself. I am very sad why does god keep placing these idiots in my life? It makes no sense to me. I have the motivation, hustle whatever but keep getting guys like this. SMFH.

Monday, April 15, 2013

got approved for a loan! Moving on my own?

So right now I am very happy. I was approved for a car loan and I am saving those pennies! So hopefully by next month I will have the money I need for my car. I want that Audi I was approved for. Oh yeah, me driving an Audi and only having car insurance for 130.00 a month? Awesome. And I am cutting Verizon out of my life. The amount they ask for monthly is ridiculous. I am not 290.00 for a one line phone every month. This is terrible. I am just going to opt for a prepaid for as little as $45.00 a month. I am going to have a car payment every month and I need to make sure I can afford those things. More important than Cable and an expensive phone on my budget. So I am going to try and take a nap because I have circles around my eyes from being so effin tired. I can't wait to get my new car. I didn't need Daddy or Mommy giving me a cosign either. you know what I want? A guy with a good dick and his own stuff to get me going. I have a feeling this trip to ___ is going to be a one man trip. 

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Oddities about people from Rochester, NY.

I had mentioned earlier that I was going to make Journal entries about my experiences throughout my last year here in Rochester. So today I thought I would mention some of the stranger things about living in a small city with a large rural area that folds lands and lands of corn and apples. Rochester is a odd place because the personalities here are very similar. Most people here like to be by themselves and think very small. I have tried numerous times to socialize with people who are a little more upbeat and I don't know someone ho can share things with me and I with them. No such luck. One girl told me she lives in a small town called, livonia and even then she hates being around people in that small town however she wants to explore NYC. Most of the girls like to dress the same and talk the same. Which leads me to believe it is small town thinking. And having someone like me come in is unusual because my personality is not what they're used to. I am a New England girl and will go home to try and bring myself back. 

Friday, April 5, 2013

Rottenchester goodbye countdown.

So I signed my lease for another year, my last year here. No matter if I complete my College goals or not, I am leaving. I was told I can move my college credits to another college. First things first let's go into the details of how happy the management was when I signed a lease for another year. I guess they want positive examples here in their complex. I completely understand that. However it is not going to stop me from reporting things, I want my peace and quiet. And I will get it no matter what. I am very respectful and would like to receive the same back. I know I can be a total crazy bitch, hello I am a Chretien and yes we're crazy. I am ready for this big move more ways than one. So I have to focus on a time  to get to Connecticut and look at a few units. I will begin my Application process this summer. Because it can take a few months for everything to work out. And I don't want to run out the door without a plan. I am going to put in applications probably around August. That'll be a seven month mark for me. If I wait until October I won't have time to look because of classes. So its better if I start in the summer and set up a time for me to go look I think that'll be good. I can't go in the fall my classes are very busy and I cannot fail this. So before I leave I need to save up money and have everything I need to get to the next step.

1. Fill out College applications in the Fall.
2. Physically go to the College of choice and find out their policies on transfer students/credits.
3. Look around in 2 places of where I want to move.
4. enjoy a day at the beach! :-)

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Noticing how this is going to turn out.

I am seeing the bigger picture and see the reality of things. I know that Akin is not going to be ready for this big move he doesn't know how to be honest or set things straight. He has to constantly be told how to do things. I am trying to remain calm I just don't know how to be a certain way anymore. He says I am too serious and I keep thinking I've been through so much and I want to regain my happiness again. I just dont remember how to be happy I need to pray be with God and cleanse my soul. After he took my child I was never the same again. On the other side of things I keep having hot flashes with this menstrual cycle phew I am sweating. Anyway, I try to find ways to keep myself together. I don't remember what it is like being "in love" I remember having similar feelings for people when I was younger but not now. I don't rely on it I am not looking for it at the moment. But I do miss the whole "fire in my loins thing" I think being in Rochester I have lost myself.