Taking one day at a time

I am in Connecticut. Definitely better than Rochester. 100 times better. Anyway, I met up with my first love, Chrissy. I still love her. And it's amazing and I was supposed to spend the night, but ...the house was filthy. I couldn't. I still love her but I couldn't. I don't know why people live like that it makes me mad. I have OCD, and I don't like filth. 

Why in the world would anyone want to live like that? Garbage everywhere and dirt on the walls and red stuff on the walls...blood? I dunno. I got creeped out.

But um, yeah. so I am busy I am always going places and meeting people. I am bored going back to bed and then homework time in the A.M

Moved in

I am now on my own. Akin goes back home tomorrow while I live downstate, outside of New York. I guess this is for the best. And I need to get back in touch with God, and remove myself from evil. I slept like a baby last night, oddly, I am up on 4:45am. I will go back to sleep I wonder what the future holds for me. 

I am going to go back to College. And then look at working. Other than that I am at peace.

Looking back at my blogs

I was reading my blog from when my sister first came to stay with me and sure enough I was being used. She went to CT with me several times and refused to go to a homeless shelter to start her own housing. When you're homeless and jobless you go to a homeless shelter to help build up your housing and to help you get a job. 

To go and live with a relative and put a burden onto them constantly is wrong and causes strains in your relationship, and it's selfish. To say I am the one that is wrong is twisted. I had to go to a DV shelter and build my own life back. I came back with a positive step and here Debra was trying to ruin it. She poured urine on my carpet when she first came to my house like a dirty nigger. 

Claims she is above all that. Yeah, right. lies, lies and more lies.

She also drew graffiti on my closet wall when she decided she was going to stay in there for several hours until her defenseless girlfriend came to rescue her from her trivial disasters. I have made mistakes in letting her come to my home. I only did it because I thought it was the right thing to do. But now after all the stress and pain I was put through I will no longer be helping her out. 

"When you have a piece of bread and you're hungry and you have a sibling who has no food you will most likely split that piece of bread. But when the sibling reaches over for your piece as well, fight to the death will occur".

Moved out of New York

So I finally did what I said I would.I left Rochester, N.Y and moved home to CT. I have a one bedroom townhouse living on my own. I kicked my freeloading sister out of my old apartment in Rochester. The management company had to file a restraining order, she was wicked. I mean, she would tell private things to my boyfriend whenever she felt like doing low blows. She would eat all of my food and not replace it and when she did she would buy me kids meals at fast food places while she and her piglet looking girlfriend would eat fancy foods. 

She was evil and a user. I am glad to be rid of her for sure. When she was kicked out by my management company I felt relief. I know it seems harsh, but no one knows what I went through. Only the Lord, my boyfriend and my sister and her minion know what went down. They still try to use me even after they were kicked out. somehow it is my fault that Debra has no license, and now her Gf doesn't either. Because they chose to drive around with suspended car insurance and registration. 

I get it. Money is hard. but there are programs out there for people with no income. And to help you establish a better way of living. I was struggling for a long time. Akin doesn't help me out and he will be in Rochester while I live in CT. I am not living with anyone else right now. I have had enough of people using me.

So now I will finish College downstate and join a gym along with Church. Those are the things I can do. I will force myself to live up my life. I have no reason not to be focused. Going to move forward and not look back. And realize the past is the past. If it was meant to be in my future it would be right beside me through and through. People who didn't stand by me when I was going through my rough patches, never cared. 

Most likely going to get married.

I am most likely going to get married. I might as well. Just move forward and just accept things the way they are.

I have a plan.

Hopefully it will work. To get rid of them once and for all.

Stupid people.

I really despise stupid people. I don't know what it is about them, but I can assure myself idiotic people are one of the major reason we have crime today. People who are absent-minded fools are in need of a serious punch to the face repeatedly, every day. This would include my sister.

She smells. I don't know what it is. But she stinks. and she is homeless. She lives on my couch and doesn't get a job or anything. And I am supposed to carry this bitch to my new place. I want to strangle the shit out of this ungrateful bitch.

I am busy today, keeping the cat out of my house my allergies are in full swing. And I am the problem though, right? Why don't you take the money you have and get the fuck out? Go get a room or an apartment and leave me the fuck alone. Always up in my space with your shit. Bothering Taz and Wendy with your psychotic antics and harassing her family and friends. Now you have an angry mob of white women who wanna blanket you. 

I feel so sick today from the cat, like my lips feel swollen. I told them the cat goes outside and then I found cat hair in my car. Which means they let the cat go in my car. Not giving a fuck about my allergies. I am telling myself not to kill this bitch. I want her out of my house. I can't take it anymore last night Debra decided she wants to talk shit about my boyfriend. 

Just because she wants to. All when things are going well in my relationship she wants to sabotage it. Sweeetie it ain't gonna work. She is nuts. And I want her out of my life. I hate her guts. She is using me to get to her next destination.

Writing up a contract today.