Moved in

I am now on my own. Akin goes back home tomorrow while I live downstate, outside of New York. I guess this is for the best. And I need to get back in touch with God, and remove myself from evil. I slept like a baby last night, oddly, I am up on 4:45am. I will go back to sleep I wonder what the future holds for me. 

I am going to go back to College. And then look at working. Other than that I am at peace.

Looking back at my blogs

I was reading my blog from when my sister first came to stay with me and sure enough I was being used. She went to CT with me several times and refused to go to a homeless shelter to start her own housing. When you're homeless and jobless you go to a homeless shelter to help build up your housing and to help you get a job. 

To go and live with a relative and put a burden onto them constantly is wrong and causes strains in your relationship, and it's selfish. To say I am the one that is wrong is twisted. I had to go to a DV shelter and build my own life back. I came back with a positive step and here Debra was trying to ruin it. She poured urine on my carpet when she first came to my house like a dirty nigger. 

Claims she is above all that. Yeah, right. lies, lies and more lies.

She also drew graffiti on my closet wall when she decided she was going to stay in there for several hours until her defenseless girlfriend came to rescue her from her trivial disasters. I have made mistakes in letting her come to my home. I only did it because I thought it was the right thing to do. But now after all the stress and pain I was put through I will no longer be helping her out. 

"When you have a piece of bread and you're hungry and you have a sibling who has no food you will most likely split that piece of bread. But when the sibling reaches over for your piece as well, fight to the death will occur".

Moved out of New York

So I finally did what I said I would.I left Rochester, N.Y and moved home to CT. I have a one bedroom townhouse living on my own. I kicked my freeloading sister out of my old apartment in Rochester. The management company had to file a restraining order, she was wicked. I mean, she would tell private things to my boyfriend whenever she felt like doing low blows. She would eat all of my food and not replace it and when she did she would buy me kids meals at fast food places while she and her piglet looking girlfriend would eat fancy foods. 

She was evil and a user. I am glad to be rid of her for sure. When she was kicked out by my management company I felt relief. I know it seems harsh, but no one knows what I went through. Only the Lord, my boyfriend and my sister and her minion know what went down. They still try to use me even after they were kicked out. somehow it is my fault that Debra has no license, and now her Gf doesn't either. Because they chose to drive around with suspended car insurance and registration. 

I get it. Money is hard. but there are programs out there for people with no income. And to help you establish a better way of living. I was struggling for a long time. Akin doesn't help me out and he will be in Rochester while I live in CT. I am not living with anyone else right now. I have had enough of people using me.

So now I will finish College downstate and join a gym along with Church. Those are the things I can do. I will force myself to live up my life. I have no reason not to be focused. Going to move forward and not look back. And realize the past is the past. If it was meant to be in my future it would be right beside me through and through. People who didn't stand by me when I was going through my rough patches, never cared. 

Most likely going to get married.

I am most likely going to get married. I might as well. Just move forward and just accept things the way they are.

I have a plan.

Hopefully it will work. To get rid of them once and for all.

Stupid people.

I really despise stupid people. I don't know what it is about them, but I can assure myself idiotic people are one of the major reason we have crime today. People who are absent-minded fools are in need of a serious punch to the face repeatedly, every day. This would include my sister.

She smells. I don't know what it is. But she stinks. and she is homeless. She lives on my couch and doesn't get a job or anything. And I am supposed to carry this bitch to my new place. I want to strangle the shit out of this ungrateful bitch.

I am busy today, keeping the cat out of my house my allergies are in full swing. And I am the problem though, right? Why don't you take the money you have and get the fuck out? Go get a room or an apartment and leave me the fuck alone. Always up in my space with your shit. Bothering Taz and Wendy with your psychotic antics and harassing her family and friends. Now you have an angry mob of white women who wanna blanket you. 

I feel so sick today from the cat, like my lips feel swollen. I told them the cat goes outside and then I found cat hair in my car. Which means they let the cat go in my car. Not giving a fuck about my allergies. I am telling myself not to kill this bitch. I want her out of my house. I can't take it anymore last night Debra decided she wants to talk shit about my boyfriend. 

Just because she wants to. All when things are going well in my relationship she wants to sabotage it. Sweeetie it ain't gonna work. She is nuts. And I want her out of my life. I hate her guts. She is using me to get to her next destination.

Writing up a contract today. 

Manipulation at its finest.

Tried it again like a dumbfuck. Debra is trying so hard to ride my gravy train without getting her own. We were supposed to be heading out in a week to take care of housing stuff and she just has to fuck with me. I told her you have to go to a shelter and she knew this already. She doesn't want to take care of her own shit. 

Instead she'll continue to fuck with me. Leaving the front door open for everyone to see what is in my house. The cat is a fucking nuisance. I don't like cats and she still keeps bringing that little cunt in my house. I have allergies and somehow I am to blame. I don't like waking up to go and get breakfast and first thing she talks about is, TAZ TAZ TAZ TAZ. Fan blowing, all windows open, loud as fuck. 

The bitch is OBSESSED. I was like, "I just woke up. I don't care". I feel disrespected. I am trying hard and all I get is stepped all over. Yes, granted I am seriously stressed out. I got my car back and now I have two bills I have no help from anyone. But yet I am the culprit. I admit, I was nasty. I get annoyed and feel used. I buy food with money I don't have because whale-ass is so self absorbed with Wendy and Taz she eats and eats all night and all day.

Mind you, I am sneezing and tasting blood from the fucking cat. I told her the cat has to go outside during the day. She tells me she will become Feral and blah blah blah. I told the bitch get rid of the cat BEFORE she came to my house. It is my responsibility to take care of that cat because you're homeless? I don't think so. Then Joanne wants to be the little voice in the back and say, "We don't want to get rid of our pets!" with a whiny voice. You should've thought about that when you decided to smoke away your money!

I gave you a place to stay. Let it be the last time. EVER. I am glad they're staying in Rochester. I will leave with dignity. I don't need to put up with this anymore. Telling me Akin and I can do our plans like a tennis match. Who the fuck do you think you are? Queen Debra, Of G---- ---Drive? No, sweetheart get your priorities straightened out.  

Now she tells me I am switching my plans. I was to bring her downstate to a shelter and I was to take care of my apartment situation. Tells me I am selfish with my personal space. The fuck? I don't want her living with me permanently. I don't. And that's my choice. I helped out long enough. She said, "oh, DSS will consider me sleeping on your couch as an outlet to a homeless shelter". 

WHAT?! 

I told her, no. That's not how it works. Whenever someone is taking advantage of you, you'll feel it. You'll feel the burdens of not being able to walk freely through your house because a mattress is spread out on the living room floor with limited space. I am tired of this. I wake up everyday to hear her burdens are my responsibility. I am not taking the baggage, If you decide to  tell someone, "No you can't stay with me". That's your choice. I shouldn't have to succumb to her drama I have lost hope and happiness because here she comes with her shit.

She tells me I am evil and I am this and that. Then she tells me to wait until the end of the month to take care of housing. Why? so you can benefit from it? Sure enough...the argument was about her moving with me to my new place. What? No. That won't happen. sorry. I think it distinctively says on my lease, only for one person any additional person needs to be added to the list. Am I wrong?